Suddenly I feel vulnerable. I knew it. I had abandoned myself too much and I have to suffer the consequences. My self-confidence will leave me. I will not get work done as expected. I will feel weak before the coming challenges and my reluctance to deal with them will manifest and magnify so much that I will be nothing but a total failure. I will lose all interest in all things around me. People will lose their faith in me.
I will feel so wretched and I would rather suffer it now in all its imaginary force, hoping that by suffering in advance I will be spared some of the wretchedness that is to come.