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Month: March, 2006

Champion

I kept my promise to be the champion




以前學這首歌,教新人唱這首歌,唱到這一句,都總有想哭的衝動。
五年前的Softball Champ. Fight,何東對DK,一度之差敗了。我以為可以唱Champion,變成唱Hall Song,心想着那一句歌詞,眼淚便浮出來了。
之後,是承諾圓夢的,充滿汗水和不為人知的淚水的兩年。
兩年後,Champion夢碎。我們淚止不了,心裡也淌血。
再過三年,她們為何東壘球隊圓Champion夢了。
即使不是為了我們,不是為了我們當年承諾代之圓夢的大仙,也要說聲謝謝。
單單是令何東壘球隊成為Champion隊這件事上,已足夠接受所有的欣賞和感謝了。

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很奇怪……為何那麼多Hysan Softball Team的人看我的xanga?何東壘球隊的人倒還說得過去……

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Taking charge.

My two-week colleague is leaving in 2 days. Today I found myself taking charge of things and running after time. While I could spare time proofreading my draft before, now I only find things piled upon things before me. It somehow feels like being Publication Secretary again. Memos and lists to things-to-do, markings on schedule, deadlines…… Emails, folders, jpeg and psd files, records and records of things past things that are and things that will come to be…… This will be happy stress. I only wish I can have a little gap for the new proposal; I have received the guidelines for 2 days and have yet mustered enough strength and brainpower for it. Not to mention the LHTHGA website which I just left into Gigi’s hands.

Or may be 10 more me, to handle all the things I am currently engaged in –





Or to go out with 11 SOLER (6 Julioes & 5 Dinoes)

還是SOLER。

竟然會累得連日記也不想寫。以前用手寫板,寫兩個小時才寫完,弄到凌晨兩三點,即使第二早要練早波,也必定要寫。現在,即使沒有OT,有一個晚上的私人時間,卻失去寫的力氣意欲。幾天沒有寫xanga,算是奇怪。香港就是這樣的了:你喜歡寫作,但寫作混不了飯吃,於是你去混飯吃,就沒了寫作的能力。一旦開始了打工,就不會再做以往視之為夢想的事。所以我當初死也要坐在家裡寫,就是知道除了是這樣全副心機的去做,根本沒有可能寫成現在那十幾萬字;夢想甚麼的,就胎死腹中。即使各種怪異眼光質疑我這個決定,我亦深信我所做的事比起賺錢比起吃喝玩樂比起很多其他事都來得有價值。這些犧牲和勇氣,全憑一個信念。在香港談夢想談信念也許很奢侈,但夢想之所以珍貴,正是因為很少人會投資自己的夢想。誰都想自己比別人擁有多一點獨特一點的吧;這一點我倒是很平常。

結論:我還是很喜歡SOLER。依然被他們尋夢的勇氣和堅定深深感動。偶像是甚麼?不就是能帶給平凡人一點夢想一點積極人生態度嗎。

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我在公司的電腦桌面放了這個:




Armani Exchange Soler Let’s Go Crazy Concert
25 April 2006 @ Hong Kong Hung Hum Stadium

尋夢的時間少了,但夢的感覺只有更加真實。

Saturday Night Fever

Been walking around all day. 9-13 at office. Lunch and afternoon nap at home. Then set out to my excursion.

Got Joycelyn’s 《on the road 在途上》at Palace IFC with a VIP discount. Then hurried off to Sai Wan Ace’s to have a haircut for my new ID card. Ace did not recognize me – probably a good thing. I told him I wanted Janice’s IDA Ad Bob hairstyle, and he had no idea. But the other staff there kept suggesting, and finally he found from his reference a Japanese hairstyle very like it. Then he was like “That is easy” and asked if I intended to have that last time I went to a barber. “Yes,” I said. “But failed.” To which he said, “Absolute failure.” Then he set off to amend the mess – so fast as if he needed not a thought, and kept chatting with other people, even looking away. But still I felt much more relaxed than last time. At least I knew he was confident that he knew what I wanted and knew how to do it. And so my hair looks much more like it now, and only costed me $68   

Then hurried off back LHT. Thought I was late, but Bell did not arrive until 2030  Karen, Liu, Sai, May Tso, Bobo, Vansie, Cindy came. Bell showed us her favourite Hirai Ken. Discussions. And then we fetched Yuki and decided by now that we might do it alongside Ho Tung Festival in November, together with the drama. Next meeting on 22 April.

Showed Bell et al the book. Felt this a right way to go. Will take it back to office to show my boss. In a feverish state!

再談Decency。

上次說的Decency主要是環繞男女相處之道。當然,Decency的定義不會這麼簡單,否則我也不會刻意找出來說。另外一個對維多利亞時期的英國人很重要的主題,跟錢有關。

 

錢是一個很敏感的主題。因為,一提到錢,便幾乎一定會引起各種尷尬的場面。對Decency有一種莫明潔癖執着的英國人,跟錢有關的話題,若非不得已,會選擇隻字不提。要先明白這一點,才能明白Pride and PrejudiceMrs Bennet在舞會上高聲談論別人的身家財富是何等難以接受的行為。一群人聚在一起,無論背景如何相似,也總會有人比較富有有人比較窮。例如去吃飯,沒察覺到身邊有人根本吃不起而決定要去貴價餐廳。這個情況,如果是AA制,會令人要為着面子而勉為其難的出席;即使是有人自動請客,又會令他人覺得是被看成吃不起貴價餐廳,被羞辱了,是更危險的做法。而比較富有的人要明顯比較窮的人請客,就更加是於禮不合,不能接受。因為不夠細心,對英國人來說是很不禮貌,不Decent的。其實越是富有的人,就越是要小心處理錢的話題。要慷慨得來又能避免令周遭的人感到尷尬,是一門很高深的學問。這是貴族的家教,要分別有家教的貴族和純綷有多點錢的通俗人家,也能從這一方面看。有時,有錢但無教養,比起沒有錢不能請大家吃飯,更令人吃不消。

 

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受了一點小打擊。

My Third Day.

Had enough sleep and went to work in good condition. Meeting as usual. Told that little boss was not coming back today – everyone relieved. Everyone have something to say about their boss, have they not? Seems that I will not be going to New York. Wonder if this is good news or not. And the Hong Kong Gifts and Premium will begin on 29 April, I hope the preparation work will not take too much time, after all I have my SOLER Let’s Go Crazy Concert on 25 April!!!

After that I spent some time reading through my notes. Lunch. And then my colleague said we were going to the stock – just then the big boss summoned me. So I had my third lecture on Chinese literature…… a considerable time lapsed before I finally took leave with the thick pile of poems in my hands and a lot of question marks on my face…… Then my colleague came over to say that we were having another meeting. I am really impressed that she took care of all those things by herself all along. Finally they could not resist the temptation of an enclosed conference room to gossip – well, at least they were more funny than frustrating. Learnt something about the big and little bosses, haha.

Spent a while going over to the factory, going to the stock, cleaning up the Reference Library, looked over some drafts, then time to leave – 6:05pm. Yeah! I hope that remains so after my colleague leaves the job. Or as they said, things were easy only because little boss was not around……

(Additional homework: Read through Big Boss’s poems.)

第二天。

第二天。開會後阿大老板又召我進他辦工室,問我都看甚麼書。我說我不懂欣賞新詩,他便給我上了一堂課……又給我看他的作品(今天才發現他在這行也有點名氣),給我看一本他策劃的詩畫集,正是數年前我在一些書店見過覺得很酷但又很貴的那本,說送一本平裝的給我,又說了很多出版的意念。我略略提起我的書,他顯得很有興趣,又給我提議。下次得帶《on the road 在途上》給他過目一下。大老板真的很有意思。

這樣就一個上午。原本跟同事外出午饍,但她們被小老板拘留,於是還是在公司草草吃個沙律算了。下午,沒完成兩件事,已要跟着小老板和同事走一趟貿易發展局。坐着聽了很久,終於完成。吃了一個下午茶,小老板說去買辨給廠做參考,一買就兩個小時……而且又有很多限制(太精美的造不來,太貴的買不起,然後小老板又不喜歡Thomas)…….回到家已沒了半條人命。原本以為外出的話可以早點下班的,郤反而遲了。看來是有點難服侍的老板……

我只想準時下班。

決定明天好好的去認識各位同事。

1st Day at Work.

First day at work. SAFE. I like being engaged.

The first hour was dreadful because I had to wait for a colleague to brief me. Had a hard time staying awake with nothing to do. Meanwhile only a guy from the IT department came to fix the account for me. Felt so grateful when finally the colleague came over to say it was time to start.

Funny to look at all those greeting cards. I really love paper products. It sounds fun to have all those exhibitions and fairs too.

My colleague led us through the company. When we reached the printing factory, 廠長called me “Peter Paul and Mary”. Guess I would have to sing a song for him next time. Wonder if he would fancy “500 Miles”, since I only remember this one.

And then when introduced to the boss, he made me sit down and have a talk with him. Very nice and sensible gentleman. Quite impressive for his age and physical condition.

Got to learn and perform a few tasks. Not too demanding for me, though the others often cast wondering glances at me. Indeed it may take some time to remember all those data, but then there is nothing complicated, and practice makes perfect. What did they expect from a Master if not the ability to handle basic administrative tasks like these?

Bought lunch from a nearby restaurant. Not good. Decided to bring my own salad from tomorrow onwards. And my own mug too.

Finished all tasks before 6pm. Fortunately the colleague is an organized person, or else I would still be entering the stock list now. Now I feel keenly the difference between having a real hand-over period (as in here) and having nothing but chaos (like last time at xxpost). I spent my last 30 minutes looking over the greeting cards. And then my colleague said I can go after informing the second boss. And so I left at 6:10pm. Not bad for the 1st day! No frustration, no exhaustion, but a lightness of heart.

Looking forward to more challenges tomorrow.

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Changes in March for the Year of Dog indeed. Work. New stage for my project. Bell’s project. Mamafriend reborn. My life is so full now, can hardly squeeze another corner for gloomy thoughts.





I wish we can perform this… My best favourite.

Last Day at Home

Well.
Tomorrow is a brand new day.
There is no other way of doing anything except wholeheartedly.
Stop doubting and pondering, get some work done!

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Haha… got a clip of SOLER on a Taiwan TV Talk Show…
Adult Contents… so so so funny…
Keep replaying it… haha…
Last treat before starting work.

Glory

「Year 1時我們的心願是Olma Challenge Rose Bowl,一直為這個目標努力,三年過去,才發現,原來我們朝思夢想的,並不是一個奬盃一支黃色大旗。」










Glory,是一支歌,是勝利的證明,還是甚麼?
Candy,我想我明白妳在想甚麼。